Starting my life over as a Cripple

 Well, ten or fifteen days ago, I was breaking in all sorts of recording gadgets and my Venom Synth, and RolandVoice tweekers (2). Now I can only function doing anything for seconds at a time before stopping, sitting or lying down, and pant like a dog, and pray. This goes on for aboutten minutes, my breathing and heart rate slowly calm down, and I'm ready for one more half a minute project. Why? A poorly trained idiot of a psych med Dr. (Pill Pusher) prescribed Benztropine to me because she thought my mouth looked "FUNNY" .,., after few weeks she upped the dose. About a week later, I was in her office, and tol her all sorts of wierd things had been happining, so I stopped all my meds, and was going without any. She freaked. She statred stammering .,., you can't do that. I said I could do whatever I want, which right no is getting out of here, and going home. Her eyeys got big, and she said sit back down, I'm not through with you! You're acting stragely! I said stop threatening me, bye! And walked out. All the way home I was looking for the cop cas, Praise God, I made it home alright. That was on May 17. The same day, I called my case manager, and asked him what to do. He said I was under no obligation to take the meds, and that I should call the front desk and request a new med Doc. Immidiately, I did just that. They said OK.A couple of days later my case manager came to my house for a sheduled counciling session.He seemed to have no recollection of the last few days. When I refreshed his memory and said I was waiting for my new med doc, he said, You can't do that, you gotta get back straight with her. I said if you're going to side with her, or try to force meds on me, to just close my case. I don't think he did, but I havent been well enought to worry about it. Just to further explain why I was a Beavioral health client in the first place .,., back around 2007 I was being evicted from my Apt. because I was exhausted after 35 yrs of construction work. A KBH worker came to my door, and said she heard I was having problems. I invited her in, and we discussed what options were available, I told her I had already applied for SSDI, but had been turned down. Sad I would need a lawyer, I knew of a lcal lawyer that my Boss reccomended. Her and I went to see him, filled out some papers. He said I would probably get turned down again, so I better try to work 6 months or so. Two days later he called me and said, "This aint what usually happens" come sign some papers quick, you've been approved 100% Medical, and non medical. I was able to pay back City Hall, and catch up everything I owed in a matter of days. I have been involved with them ever since, purley voluntarry. They helped me with Social Security paper work, and were treating me for Chronic Depression. I blame the over prescribing of meds. When she put me on Benztropine, I was already taking, "Geodon" "Trazadone" and Bynadril over the counter. You can Google Benztropine .,., it says it's a dangerous drug and should not be givin to those over sixty especially, and never along with Geodon, Trazodone, or Dyphenhydramine (Benadryl).